Thursday, May 31, 2012

3.14

I've been horribly lax about posting.  Sorry.

I think I ovulated on Tuesday, but I'm going to the carnival and riding rides tonight anyway.  Am I asking for trouble?

Thursday, May 24, 2012

3.7

Exercise has fallen by the wayside between illness, ants, and broken toes.  Now the house is a wreck, I have Bible Study and a funeral to attend in the next 2 days, and the following weekend is a camp out.  I have made a commitment to return to crocheting after the camp out.  I think I need to make a commitment to start doing yoga and running again after the camp out.  Anyone care to hold me accountable?

P.S.  Had hoped to run a 5k, but since I'm so out of shape I guess it's just as well that the 5k fell on the weekend of my camping trip...here's to next year...

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

3.5

Slowing down AF...research and advice say missing supplements on my period won't hurt.  Gonna go for it...

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

3.4

Going to do a little more research these last few days of my period before we make a final decision whether or not to TTC this cycle.

Good news!  The exterminator is coming tomorrow to finish the job, but we saw no piss-ants today!  I got to eat 3 square meals in my own home!  I felt so much better.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

3.3

Yesterday the washing machine broke.  Still waiting on the exterminator to confirm the ants are gone.  Thus, still not eating properly.  PMS is a *censored*.  Haven't had any of my supplements or more than one square meal a day since the ants first arrived.  I think I am dying.  I don't think even if this gets straightened out before the bleeding stops that we should try this month.  My body needs another cycle to recuperate and get back on the meds.  I don't want to get a BFP just to wind up having another miscarriage.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

3.2

Okay, so I'm obviously not preggers.  Started a new cycle yesterday.  Not going to try to sway this time.  I'll eat normally--as soon as the piss-ants leave.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

2.26

I have been plagued by my yearly infestation of piss-ants this week, and I can't bring myself to eat while in the same house with the darn critters.  So I have been living on one hamburger per day for a couple of days.  I'm not sure this is healthy.

Also, Fertility Friend keeps changing my ovulation date, so I'm not sure whether I'm sick, ovulating, pregnant, or starting my period.

Do you ever question why, if you are saved, does God seem to have it in for you?  Sometimes I feel like the only good thing in my life is my little boy.  That's probably the hormones and the malnutrition talking...

Monday, May 14, 2012

2.23

Mother's Day is a bittersweet time for the woman who has children in both this life and the afterlife.  Today was emotional.  I know it is even more difficult for the women whose children are ALL in the afterlife.  Blessings, dear ones!

Saturday, May 12, 2012

2.21

So glad my doctor told me not to bother swaying; I would have missed out on some delish prime rib.  Also, I bought expensive (old lady) shoes and totally rocked them--dancing the night away with a broken toe. I was the luckiest girl at the wedding; I had THREE dates!  Hubby was in the wedding party, so I ate dinner with DS and BIL's BFF, then danced with all 3 of them (mostly with Hubby).

Thursday, May 10, 2012

2.20

Macrobid hasn't made the burning go away.  They haven't called me back with my labs yet.

So much for being a good girl...I POAS'd at 3AM and again at noon.  BFN.  They haven't called me back with those labs either.

I've been super emotional today.  Everything either makes me cry or scream, I was tempted to throw my dinner plates just because the sound of shattering ceramic would be so satisfying, and I drove DS crazy wanting hugs/kisses/snuggles when he just wanted to watch CARS and play with his HotWheels.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

2.19

Started my Macrobid (generic kind) for my UTI today.  Hopefully it will finally go away.  It has never been severe, just mildly annoying, but it's lasted for so long now.

Still waiting for a call back on my quant beta.  I was a good girl and did not POAS.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

2.18

Went to the doctor today.  Got a prescription for my UTI and a beta draw.  I asked the doctor which form of MTHFR I have, and he said I'm hetero A1298C, and if I had to have a mutation of that gene, that's the best one to have.  Got him to draw a beta, although he was skeptical about my O date and thought my sway was probably more likely to prevent a pregnancy that cause me to be pregnant with a specific gender.  He explained to me in no uncertain terms why swaying is bunk.  Part of me is disappointed, because I can't try to force God's hand anymore; part of me is relieved, because I can eat whatever the heck I want.  I celebrated with a roast beef sammie before bed.

On that note, Pastor finished his sermon series on the book of Ruth, and he was talking about how Naomi always had some sort of plan to force God to do what she wanted--even to the point of risking Ruth's (already tenuous as a Moabitess) good reputation.  I've been thinking about it a lot and was already wondering if I should continue to sway pink...doctor just confirmed the direction my thoughts were headed.  Sorry for trying to do Your job, Lord.

2.17

So sleepy today, and weird appetite.  Glad I'm going to the doctor tomorrow.

Monday, May 7, 2012

2.16

I desperately wanted caffeine this morning, but I was a good girl.  Aren't you proud of me?

Made quiche tonight for the first time and it turned out well.  Ham is a meat I can consume with my current diet, and I read that eating eggs can help with implantation...

Saturday, May 5, 2012

2.15

I am skinny, but I'm on a diet.  Diets aren't only for losing weight.  This month I've decided to abstain from red meat, from caffeine (other than chocolate, which I can't live without), and to cut back on my sodium intake.  I'm hoping that this will jumpstart the benefits of having taken Saw Palmetto during my follicular phase and lower my testosterone.  For one thing, if I were to be pregnant, I want to sway pink.  For another, I'm tired of being so hirsute.  PCOS causes higher levels of testosterone in some women.  We'll see how long the diet lasts.  I'm committed to staying on the diet for the rest of this cycle unless I am already pregnant.  Beyond that, it will depend on if I notice any hormonal benefits and when/if we are TTC.  I know I don't want to live this way for the rest of my life, but I can live this way for large portions of my life if need be.

2.14

More vomiting.  Flutters.  Fatigue.

5dpo is too soon to POAS.  I feel like an idiot for wasting the $.

I still think I have a UTI as well, and I'm also wondering if I'm OD'ing on Magnesium.  TMI alert: I've had a lot of diarrhea lately.

I'll take a list of supplements on Tuesday and I'll let you know if the doctor makes any changes.

On the bright side, I got to see Avengers: Assemble tonight and have all the feelings.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

2.13

Still think I have a UTI.  Also, I barfed a little before dinner and had some cramping while we gave DS a bath.  Trying to arrange a doctor's appointment sometime next week for treatment of UTI, maybe a beta, and some advice for the future if this wasn't my cycle.  I got my crosshairs today, but only because I discarded yesterday's temperature...which makes sense because I hadn't had 3 consecutive hours of sleep when I took it. So I'm at 4dpo now.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

2.12

No crosshairs yet.  My temps dropped a little yesterday and today, but not enough that I doubt ovulation was on CD9.  Feel a little better after 2 glasses of cranberry juice today.

2.11

I'm pretty sure I ovulated on CD9 and also that I am developing a UTI.   I find it interesting that last month as soon as I stopped the vitamin C and Echinacea, I came down with a bad sinus infection; and this month as soon as I stopped the cranberry, I came down with a UTI.  Maybe preventative medicine isn't always helpful part time...